Am I ridiculous...

• for watching the TV series Intervention because it gives me hope for the world? It shows me that there are still people messing up out there that actually want to change. Granted, they may be forced to change due to the help of people who love them, but still the mere fact that they are willing to do so makes me happy.
• because I thrive on getting attention from older men even if they are 50 years old, who are still married, have a girlfriend on the side, and have children older than me?
• in a sense that I do something once and then obsess over it for weeks, months, and sometimes years?
• in thinking that someday I will find someone to marry that will 1) not have a potty mouth 2) hate sarcasm as much as I do 3) appreciate my quirkiness that my best friend Katie loves 4) not assume I am sleeping with everyone's husband that I come in contact with 5) want to make babies in weird obscene places and 6) live like hippies in the mountains for a vacation every once in a while.
• for making even lines in the grass when I mow... and if it is not even go over it again and again until it is... similar to the vacuum lines on the carpet.
• because I like to tell whoever will listen about my drama (oh my goodness, I just realized I am one of those girls!)?
• for getting excited to take the garbage cans out to the road at the office on Thursdays so I can have a few moments in the sun?
• in thinking that the world will end in 2012.
• to get my doctorate in the study of gastroenterology so I can 1) cure cancer 2) learn more about the stomach and intestines because they are facinating organs 3) discover a healthy/easier way to help others lose weight since I have struggled with it from day one and 4) have a more fulfilling career where I return home at night knowing I did something good for someone else.
• because I want to be Meredith Grey and date dreamy Dr. Sheppard?
• for thinking that my dreams are always trying to tell me something?
• for aspiring to be an amazing hip hop dancer and sometimes late at night find myself in my room dancing with my ipod like I am on stage and a crowd is watching me.
• in thinking men with abnormal amounts of body hair are sexier than anything in this world?
• for asking people really personal questions like "have you ever cheated on your wife?" and then surprised when they actually tell me the truth?
• to think that I don't deserve the best friends that I have because of how amazing they are and how many faults I have?
• for wanting to make a lot of money someday so I can help others go to college that don't have the funds available?
• to wish I could teach well.
• because I like coming home to a clean house.
• because I enjoy beable to fix mechanical things?
• for loving the sight of watching a transformation in someone.
• for the burning sensation I have inside of me when I see certain people? It feels like my heart is going to jump out of my chest and my voice gets really high pitch becaus of how happy I am to see them...
• for sitting in my room spending so much time to write this when it is a beautiful sunny day outside...