Obsessed

Obsessed... It is a really funny looking word if you look at it for too long, but none the less we all have our little things we obsess over for a period of time. Sometimes it is only for a short time, while other items we find ourselves living, eating, and breathing them day and night.

If I were to pick three things I am obsessed with in my life today they would be:
1) Grey's Anatomy
2) My decision to become raw
3) Jack Johnson

I hate that Grey's Anatomy is at the top of my list but I have come to terms with the fact that I am addicted to the show. My roommates decided to watch all the seasons and for whatever reason I ended up sitting in the living room for one of the episodes. Needless to say, I have not been able to break away since. I have an addictive personality which means I have the hardest time walking away once I start. It became my reason to live. Okay, so maybe that is a little exaggerated, but it really has taken over my life. In fact, I watched 6 episodes last Saturday night and ended up dreaming about the show. I went to bed around 2AM that night and woke up at 7AM thinking about Derek and the look he gave Meredith as they were standing there at the prom waiting for her to make a choice. He always looks at her as though she is the only one he can see. It is something I want to find someday. Maybe my fantasy is a little unrealistic but at the same time it just makes a girl feel so good to watch someone else have that and only hope for yourself. That is probably why I like the show so much... I am living vicariously through Derek and Meredith.

Yes, I have gone raw! People tell me not to use those terms when describing my habits as of recent due to the fact that it sounds a little provocative, however, there is no better way to describe it. Upon talking to my bosses wife, I have found that eating living and raw foods ONLY is the best thing you could ever do for your body. Ever since my freshman year of high school, when I went on the Atkin's diet (yes, this is completely opposite than that of a raw diet, but we live and learn right?) and lost 100 and some odd lbs, I have been searching for a healthy life style. I have tried many different things and I think I have finally found the end. I will not lie, it is so hard to eat nothing but raw foods. The worst is cutting out baked goods. Growing up I ate cooked dessert foods for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. When I wasn't eating dessert foods, I was chowing down on fast food. I never had energy, motivation, or confidence. By the time I was 15 years old, I was 5'9", weighed close to 265 and wore a size 24. My weight has been a constant struggle but maybe now I have found the end. Since I have gone raw there have been many changes in my life including that of energy levels, brain activity, motivation, and feeling just down right good. I have only been raw for 3 weeks now and not 100% at that. It is hard to make that drastic of a transition so I have decided to take it slow. As time progresses, I am sure I will see more positive affects. My obsession with this new lifestyle has also taken over my mind... when I am not thinking of Grey's Anatomy of course! When I get home at night I can't help but read tons of blogs of raw foodists and discover new recipes for food. Learning how to unleash all the digestive enzymes in food has become a passion...

Lastly, Jack Johnson! Need I say more? My good friend, Ryan Mendenhall, was so kind as to take me to a Jack Johnson concert this past Monday at the USANA amphitheater. I had heard some of his stuff in the past but now I am hooked! I haven't listened to anything else but Jack since that night. His music is so down to earth not to mention he thinks I am "smooth and creamy like peanut butter". There are few musicians who I feel are pretty genuine and really mean what they say/write about in their songs. He seems as though he means what he is singing about. Gavin Degraw is another one of those who I feel very strongly about but don't even get me started on him because I won't be able to stop!


I don't feel as though obsessions in our life are bad. In fact, they can be refreshing because they give you motivation, something to look forward to, and can make you productive if the drive you derive from them is acted upon. That is how I find to accomplish goals in my life, by the mere obsession I incur forcing myself to live, eat, and breath whatever goal that happens to be at the time.